Grown

Grown
Is a state of mind
It’s not an age of any kind
It’s not having all the traits on one list
It’s not doing what grown people do
It’s not never showing immaturity
It’s not never showing weakness
It’s knowing you will make mistakes
And learning from them
It’s take the time to digest things around you
Figuring out what’s best
For you
Going through trial and error
And learning your way through
Being big enough to admit
Maybe you made a mistake
Taking responsibility for your actions
Instead of letting anger take control
Sitting back and analyzing
All options that come your way
Learning when your attitude
Can bring you down
Just as much as lift you up
Grown is realizing
That you constantly grow
That you constantly learn
That pushing away
People in your corner
Will land you high and dry
But the people who truly care
Will be there when you come back
But taking advantage
Just because you know that
Shows more immaturity
Maybe a stage
We all need to see
No matter the age
To grow more
Will we ever truly be grown?
When we know everything
There is no more room
For us on this plane
No more learning
Left to gain
Purpose of being here done
Do we really want to be grown
Or continue to learn
Continue to grow
Do grown folks things
Like taking care of responsibilities
Still knowing theres always more growing to do
And being open to it too

Uncharted Terrain

Rolling through my mind
Over and over again
Learning from the past
Not wanting to make the same mistakes again
Wanting to trust
Open fully up
Be free
Be me
Yet knowing I can get hurt again
Scared to move with the wind
Scared for the fragile to be broken again
Not knowing his real intentions
Almost let my old ways take the lead
And push away
What I may just need
To fill the void
The one part of your heart
That has outside needs
Love and family
To nourish and feed
The fragile part
That can easily
Break apart
And drain the soul
Mind
Body
And Heart
Not to be given lightly
When held back
It can miss alot
Alot of needs
Alot of love
Alot of comfort
Even having the family
Is it my body or heart
Another question
Tearing me apart
Will the friendship be lost
To turmoil
And at what cost
A few hours pleasure
With lingering memories
Conversation falling apart
Because physical is now the theme
Or will it be
Where we don't need
As much conversation
Because we know each other's needs
Where we can be content
To be with each other in silence
A perfect bond indeed
For now I'll just move
With the cheese
And see where that takes me.

Our Young Men

Only a Man
Can raise a man
Been said before
I’m saying it again
Maybe this time
Someone new will listen
Take it in
And understand
Yet we chose to produce
From males who aren’t men
Continuing this cycle
Of women trying to raise men
Some can learn the definition
Grow up and be great men
Without that example
Some know not where to begin

With no example
They can fathom
The words spoken
From the female chatham
“What does she know?”
They subconsciously ask
She doesn’t even have a man
Always alone is a fact
She does it all
Without a man
Why is she pushing me
When we have these women
To pick up our slack
Do everything we lack
Bringing in all the doe
Kneeding it also
Letting that bread rise
Then baking it too
No surprise
Common place
I see it everyday
No need for me to step up
And take any role in this play
I only need to do me
She doesn’t need my money

But what he fails to see
Is support is what we need
That strength that comes from a MAN
That understanding
That strong hand
That example
For our young men
Even for our women
To show them what they
Can have in a man
How they should be treated
Even though they can be independent
So the women
Settle for less than a man
They don’t know better
Had no one to show them
Don’t see the men
That will work for them
Not be intimidated
By their success
Will support
And be there
Will raise their seeds
Will protect their needs
Others just wait
Knowing there have to be some left
How long to wait
How long to be alone
Where are
The real men
Trust
We need you

Friends & Family

So called family and friends
can never understand
They push more pain
Than helping hands
Pulling deaper and deaper
In an attempt to get you in their land
Of nothing but quick sand

Thinking yo have it made
Really don't know your days
They want to see your struggle
Want to see your pain
If they look harder they wll
There are just amazed at your will
And yourstrength to pull through
To move up
In spite of the things you go through

Because you can depend on you
And not need a man to support you
Because you're making it young
Their old and dreams gone
Not your fault they let them go
Not too late for them to pick them up
With no drive they can't see

So instead of woking on them
They try and down thee
To pull you on their level
Because they can't grow
Mind to shallow
to closed to see
all the possibilities
in life there can be

pull yourself out
don't let them win
give them something admire
somethin to aspire
Maybe their minds will open
maybe they will see
they can do/be anything
they want to be

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The anger
The pain
The confusion
The shame
Emotions battered
House tattered
Evidence of tantrum
Emotional storm
How to let go
Violation of body, mind and soul
Emotional melting pot
Already on overflow
Too many thoughts
Hard to let go
Already took enough
Now part of my soul
No apology
Trying to blame me
Can’t take responsibility
For your actions at all
It will come back
But til then what
I’m just to feel pain
Why won’t it go away
Noid in my own home

Feeling unsafe
Scared to be alone
Checking locks
Sleeping with mace
And you try and tell me to my face
It wasn’t a violation
You did nothing wrong
Don’t want to involve police
Seems like so much stress
At the same time
Am I letting you get away with it
No one uunderstands
It’s not their feelings
Every1 thinks they know what’s best for me
But they aren’t in my shoes
And they don’t want to be
No one there for support
Just judgment of me
Then I keep it in
Wrong again
Can’t win for lose
You violated me
I did nothing to you
Yet you walk around so happy
When I’m full of tears inside of me