Hurt

Hurt
Dam this hurts
Why would I listen to what his words said
When I could feel in his heart different
Or did I speak it into existence
Anyway I’m left again
Holding another bag
With nothing but pain within
Trying so hard not to be
A “bag lady”
As soon as I dispense of one
Another one comes
Fuller than the last
When will this all pass
How do I grab that other bag
The one full of happiness
The one that seems just out of my reach
Always helping someone else get there
But what about me
Maybe this is my purpose
To be a pit stop
On the way
While others are on the road
And actually reaching their pursuit
I’m just walking forever
Stuck in the twilight
With no end in sight
Can’t see the light at the end of this tunnel
Maybe I’m in a cave
Going deeper
And deeper
The darkness becoming thicker
Eyes adjusting by the day
My own little evolution
Evolving to survive
This environment
That it seems I’ll continue to live in
Is it by choice
Or is this God’s plan
Before you even begin
To tell me God wants everyone happy
Do some research into history
And the Bible and you will see
There are those here meant to never be happy
And plenty of times
I have to sit and wonder
If one of those is me

Knowledge

Knowledge
I heard a song today
That pushed an issue even closer to me
It’s not like I haven’t heard this before
Especially in main stream media
But it still saddens me to see
That our society
Not only accepts and condones
But feels this way more and more
People really think
Money is more than knowledge can be
Child please
Society has forced us to use money
Why is it so hard to see
That knowledge is something you can’t take from me
My heart is another thing
Some may try and argue
That with money you can buy anything
Knowledge and love included in their schemes
I guess it would seem that way to a fool
But knowledge is not just something you find in school
It’s something that can be gained from anywhere
So I’m not saying you need a degree to get there
But when did it become acceptable
For a person to be downed because a degree was one of their goals
One they worked hard to obtain
How could that cause so much distain
Are we so naïve
That we make money our dreams
Are we really too blind to see
That money doesn’t make the man be
A man in the end
It’s what’s within
The knowledge it takes
To use the resources in his wake
To step up and take
Care of his responsibilities
To know love and even envy
To be humble
And not realize
How many people wish
They can be him on the inside
While people are so busy clowning
And downing
They really would give anything
Especially all of that money
To have the true riches
Only knowledge can bring
I hope this reaches at least one
And helps them understand
While on this Earth
Gain all the knowledge u can
© Mz Precious Poet 2010

Waited too long

Waited too long
How long can I wait it out
Before you realize
The love I have for you in my life
I sit back while you do your dirt
Clean it all up
Act like I’m not hurt
Attempt to school you on how to do it better
Try to calm her down as your helper
Doing everything to hold on to my position
The one you take your anger out on
And any shape or form
It manifests in that day
Mentally
Physically
You don’t care which way
Five minutes later
It’s all cool
Hell I was choked up
Not You

Now this particular day
Ol girl made you mad
You came home
Still wanting some ass
You knew I didn’t want it
But took it anyway
That wasn’t enough
For your frustrations that day
I wasn’t her
So you couldn’t bust
You started to choke
Hoping to add to your lust
I fought til I couldn’t anymore
You just held tighter
Enjoying the ride in store
You finally reached your peak
And decided to let go of me
Turned over and askes
“Was it good baby?”
Acting surprised when you got no response
Anger started bulding back up
So you grabbed my arm
And felt the weight
Looked into my cold eyes
Dam was all you can say
How can I hide this
Running through your mind
No care or thought
To the life taken so sly
I waited and waited for you to love me back
To appreciate everything I did to have your back
Guess I waited too long
Now that chance for love is gone
No one will know my pain or suffering
No one will know my hard work or vitality
They will put out a search party for me
And you’ll search like you care I’m missing
Soon enough it will all die down
That’ sigh of relief will resound
That’s just when you’ll get hit
From my uncle who suspected it
All along and was biding his time
This is one shot in the head you won’t survive
16 from the clip for good measure
And to make sure they won’t recognize you in any weather
Closed casket is just what he’ll want
His niece didn’t get laid to rest
Your people won’t get to see you either punk
This is a dangerous game you play
And you can never come out on top in the end
But as long as we keep playing
This is how it will end
© Mz Precious Poet
2010

V Day

Excuse me while I think out loud
A little habit I have
Who cares if there’s a crowd
I’ll tell you one thing right now
This won’t be politically correct
Hope you didn’t come here looking for that
You might as well close your eyes and ears
Because all I know how to be is real
All this Valentine’s day hoopla
I just can’t get into it in any way
First of all love is year round
Don’t do anything for me today
You can’t do next Monday
If you need an excuse to do something special
Then I don’t need you in my circle
Ignorance is a pet peeve of mine
Are you celebrating something
Not knowing the time
Of day, or the way
It came about
In the first place
Now if you can give me a good reason
I’ll respect that and keep it moving
But if you all can say
Is “It’s Valentine’s day”
Then you have some reading
And studying to do my friend
Yes I said it
Britannica it is
Or whichever you choose
Just know Wikipedia is not the one to use
4th century slapping was used to promote fertility
Looks like that will cause you to lose a baby to me
5th century had to do with love
Secret marriages hid from the king
Valentine killed on Feb 14th
Heart cut out and given to out to eat
So now you buy candy hearts
And send them out to eat
What message do you see
Seems gruesome to me
Wait let’s not forget the Valentine in the 3rd century
Can anyone tell me who we are celebrating really?
When you find out
Let me know
And exactly what I’m celebrating him for
Let’s get into some pagan history
Raffling off teens for sex
The men get a rite of passage
These girls get vexed
Stuck being used for a year
Giving goods that’s so dear
Something they can never get back
Christians have no originality
So we take holidays and make them what we want them to be
Now we raffle saints to imitate
Can someone tell me how it got to how it is this date
And this cupid kid
He was a Roman God to bid
Isn’t this worshipping false idols
Now I’m even more confused than when I started
It can have me in circles all day if you allow me
Now just in this last century
Let’s mark it with another massacre
And celebrate with glee
Is it really for lovers
And if it is
What about those
With no love to get
Now we have left people out
Yet again
Another “holiday”
Causing depression

Blood Thicker than Water

Blood is thicker than water
At least that’s what they tell me
They all LIED
From what I can see
Family will be the first
To knock down your dreams
They’ll choose water over you
In a heartbeat
Especially when that water was supposed to be your friend
Someone looking to divide from within
They can only do it if allowed
Sad when your family is the crowd
To tear you down
More and more
Never thinking to help build
What you have in store
Oh they talk a good game
“We’re Family”
So quick to say
But they show you better than tell you
That in the grand scheme of things
You my friend mean
Nothing at all to them
Maybe someone they think they can pity
Not knowing you have more for them to envy
Or maybe that’s what it is
You are doing it too big
Slow down
And maybe
Just maybe
Your family
Will love you again
Friends are no better
Take advantage
In all types of weather
People thinking because you work hard
You have it all to give
But what about your household
They forget
You too have to live
Not their problem at all
You’re supposed to help them take care of their home
Drop all you have to do
And run to take care of them too
Child please
Your home is your first priority
Don’t be blinded and believe
They will be there when you need
Help because you want to and can
Don’t look for a returning hand
You’re get your heart crushed
And have nowhere to land
But all deeds comeback
They will need you again
And the people you least expect
Will be there when you need a hand
Mz Precious Poet
© 2010

The Broken Mirror

The Broken Mirror
“When you can look in the mirror and still not see what you’ve become. I know I’m guilty of it too, but not like some” Jay Z
Are the mirrors these days broken
Or is it me
Do these people do things
And really not see
That they are the ones
They talk about
All the complaints
And hypocritical bouts
Then turn right around
And do just what they said
Shouldn’t be done
Cause “We’re too old for that”
Lying to themselves
Then trying to put in on the next
Any person they think
They can best
But talk is cheap
And it gets you nowhere
Keep on talking
Maybe someone will get scared

Even if you do succeed
In making people believe
It’s the next man
What will you do when it happens again?
Find someone else new
Try with them to spew
Your garbage and hate
Mad they can’t relate
Sorry to tell you
Everyone doesn’t have time boo
To respond to the madness
Some just cut you off quick
Yeah now you’re even more pissed
Cause no one is listening to your shit

Now here you go
Trying to put people against each other for a show
Anyone that allows this
Is just as dumb as the bitch
That attempts to start the bullshit
When real people sit and talk
You get pointed out like a hawk
More people see
The reality
Not what you want them to perceive
Just because someone is new
Doesn’t mean they’re naïve
Instead of getting help
Something you so obviously need
You push more and more away
Less people to even care
If you’re ok
Personally
I’ll continue to pray
That for your children’s sake
One day you’re ok
But right now
In the words of Jay
“You lost one”
(Or maybe more)

Untitled

What am I do to
Opened up to you
Allowed you in my life
Not looking for stife
Opened up my home
You and lil buddy had time to roam
Now I know most of the complexities
And it's doing nothing but stressing me
Most of what you say you do
But this one thing has a hold on you
Not sure which way to turn
Another lesson learned
This one may be lifelong
An UnXpect'D suprise to come
Now the bond might be forever
And the fallout so unclever
Instead of using all that tact
You don't know how to act
Stuck in between
Don't want to be mean
Sometime the truth hurts
And it needs to be told fromt he first
If not drama follows
So unworth the hollow
Empty feeling that's left
Behind when no one's left
To unerstand the pain
Hurt
Maybe even shame
Looking back on the situation
Reflection
Mew perception
Hind site 20/20
Foresite needs some contacts
You steady telling me to relax
Well guess what I will
I'm sure you won't like this deal
Cause I'm relaxing on my own
The stress won't be brought to my home

Mz Precious Poet
(c) 2010