No love returned
Too busy for me
I’m too busy to see
You can’t support my dreams
No support from me
Too busy to read my blog
Now I’m too busy to see you have a blog
Man you won’t even RT for me
Now you get no RTs
Even with please
Sending me off when I ask for help
Next time I’ll leave you to yourself
Maybe your twitter peeps will help
Since they get the yelps
The time promised to me
Enjoy NYE
How did it take me this long to see
That this “friendship” was dependent upon me
And me only
To keep it going
Well now I was my hands
Less “friends” in the end
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Fool again
Fooled Again
Lovers should first be friends
Had me so excited when it began
Assumed we had an understanding
Mutual respect from timing
Thinking we knew each other well enough
Never imagined it could get this rough
Harsh words said from anger
Whole relationship in danger
Lying
Then blaming on me
Name calling that didn’t apply
You never saw the crazy side
Love turning into hate
Hurt you never loved me anyway
Nothing really I can say
Or do to have my way
Left out in the cold
With not a lick of clothes
Trying to repair
The crack left there
That love for a friend
Expanded in the wind
It became too much
Something the friend wouldn’t touch
Now all is lost
Was it worth the cost
Betrayal and deceit
All played on me
Now my friend is gone
Where’s my comfort zone
No more beautiful conversations
No new vacations
No hugs and kisses
Never get to be the misses
Lesson learned
When will it ever be my turn
Lovers should first be friends
Had me so excited when it began
Assumed we had an understanding
Mutual respect from timing
Thinking we knew each other well enough
Never imagined it could get this rough
Harsh words said from anger
Whole relationship in danger
Lying
Then blaming on me
Name calling that didn’t apply
You never saw the crazy side
Love turning into hate
Hurt you never loved me anyway
Nothing really I can say
Or do to have my way
Left out in the cold
With not a lick of clothes
Trying to repair
The crack left there
That love for a friend
Expanded in the wind
It became too much
Something the friend wouldn’t touch
Now all is lost
Was it worth the cost
Betrayal and deceit
All played on me
Now my friend is gone
Where’s my comfort zone
No more beautiful conversations
No new vacations
No hugs and kisses
Never get to be the misses
Lesson learned
When will it ever be my turn
The Greatest Loss
I wanted you before you were there
Then the sickness came from no where
I already had the feeling
That you were forming
You made yourself known
Everyone wanted you home
Started making plans
Grateful for the addition
Loving my condition
But God had other plans
He wanted you more than I ever can
Maybe I didn’t deserve to be blessed
Sorry I took you through so much stress
I long for you everyday
Only in my dreams do you stay
Then I wake up to reality
You’re not really here with me
No matter how hard I try
I can’t replace you in my life
Can’t fill the hole you left
Can’t get over the theft
The snatching away of my heart
Our new start
What was I supposed to learn from this
Never getting to feel your kiss
Never smelling your
Never holding you
Still loving you
I hope you can feel it
My love hasn’t lessened one bit
Please keep watch over us
Your family me & Krys
Then the sickness came from no where
I already had the feeling
That you were forming
You made yourself known
Everyone wanted you home
Started making plans
Grateful for the addition
Loving my condition
But God had other plans
He wanted you more than I ever can
Maybe I didn’t deserve to be blessed
Sorry I took you through so much stress
I long for you everyday
Only in my dreams do you stay
Then I wake up to reality
You’re not really here with me
No matter how hard I try
I can’t replace you in my life
Can’t fill the hole you left
Can’t get over the theft
The snatching away of my heart
Our new start
What was I supposed to learn from this
Never getting to feel your kiss
Never smelling your
Never holding you
Still loving you
I hope you can feel it
My love hasn’t lessened one bit
Please keep watch over us
Your family me & Krys
He is
He Is
He is my very best friend
The first one I want to confide in.
The one to hold me and make it all ok
The one who tells me the pain will fade away.
He is my true protector
The one who lets no harm come my way
The defender of our home
The man ready to slay anything that gets in our way
He is my support system
The one who dares me to dream
The one who tells me nothing can get in my way
The one who pushes me just enough to make it through the day.
He is my provider
The head of the household
The one that feeds and clothes me
The one who nourishes my soul
He is my king
The lover of my dreams
The one who makes me feel sexy
And the one to pamper me
He is all of this and more
And I can't wait to see what all he has in store
The only thing I need to know now
Is
WHO HE IS!
Krystle T.
Copyright 2007
He is my very best friend
The first one I want to confide in.
The one to hold me and make it all ok
The one who tells me the pain will fade away.
He is my true protector
The one who lets no harm come my way
The defender of our home
The man ready to slay anything that gets in our way
He is my support system
The one who dares me to dream
The one who tells me nothing can get in my way
The one who pushes me just enough to make it through the day.
He is my provider
The head of the household
The one that feeds and clothes me
The one who nourishes my soul
He is my king
The lover of my dreams
The one who makes me feel sexy
And the one to pamper me
He is all of this and more
And I can't wait to see what all he has in store
The only thing I need to know now
Is
WHO HE IS!
Krystle T.
Copyright 2007
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Dreams
What happened to my dreams
Some I see so vivedly
Others I barely see
Dreams lost to even me
Doctor seems out of my reach
Nurse practitioner not high enough for me
Lawyer still a possibility
Is it what I want really
What about pharmacy
Is this a goal I can meet?
This MBA thing
Just something to keep me on my feet
Where do I go from there
No clues in my reach
And on the family front
Seems like I'll never reach my dreams
No companion to share my life with
No father for my child
No new baby to bring more joy
Into our lifestyles
Not in the right taxx bracket
To live comfortably
Just repeating each day
A cycle boring me
Not satisfied at work
My brain is not used at all
I'm scared it will just burst
From knowledge held too long
Yet I continue to fill it
With things I may never need
Is this a waste of time.
I always thought knowledge was the key
Something that can never be taken
But what's the use
If it sits there unused
Will it fade away like the dreams
Sometimes that's what it seems
When I can't remember a simple equation
Or an element that should be easy to me
I feel like I'm aging to early
A senior in my twentys
Maybe that's just my story
How it's meant to be
Confused throughout my journey
In this life thrown to me.
Some I see so vivedly
Others I barely see
Dreams lost to even me
Doctor seems out of my reach
Nurse practitioner not high enough for me
Lawyer still a possibility
Is it what I want really
What about pharmacy
Is this a goal I can meet?
This MBA thing
Just something to keep me on my feet
Where do I go from there
No clues in my reach
And on the family front
Seems like I'll never reach my dreams
No companion to share my life with
No father for my child
No new baby to bring more joy
Into our lifestyles
Not in the right taxx bracket
To live comfortably
Just repeating each day
A cycle boring me
Not satisfied at work
My brain is not used at all
I'm scared it will just burst
From knowledge held too long
Yet I continue to fill it
With things I may never need
Is this a waste of time.
I always thought knowledge was the key
Something that can never be taken
But what's the use
If it sits there unused
Will it fade away like the dreams
Sometimes that's what it seems
When I can't remember a simple equation
Or an element that should be easy to me
I feel like I'm aging to early
A senior in my twentys
Maybe that's just my story
How it's meant to be
Confused throughout my journey
In this life thrown to me.
Monday, December 21, 2009
Sleepless nights
Early mornings
Break of dawn
Working to support we
On another level than people can see
Usually humble about me
But now people need to see
The niceness can fade away
I can come on the same level as you
I won't will show better than I can tell you
That you can never get on my level
You don't even have your own
You really call yourself grown
Yes everyone needs help sometimes
You were never there when I needed mine
Instead of saying no
You weren't a man and lied
I see birds of a feather flock together
He is just as slow as you
Both in the same position
Will either ever get better
Priorities show it all
And the H** is on your level
Living on the government
And continually having kids
That will never be me
That makes me see
I will never be what you want
My life includes more
Than laying on my back
10 years on me
And that's all you accomplish
Please
Funny when the tables turn
That's what it takes for people to learn
How does it feel
When you get the real!
Early mornings
Break of dawn
Working to support we
On another level than people can see
Usually humble about me
But now people need to see
The niceness can fade away
I can come on the same level as you
I won't will show better than I can tell you
That you can never get on my level
You don't even have your own
You really call yourself grown
Yes everyone needs help sometimes
You were never there when I needed mine
Instead of saying no
You weren't a man and lied
I see birds of a feather flock together
He is just as slow as you
Both in the same position
Will either ever get better
Priorities show it all
And the H** is on your level
Living on the government
And continually having kids
That will never be me
That makes me see
I will never be what you want
My life includes more
Than laying on my back
10 years on me
And that's all you accomplish
Please
Funny when the tables turn
That's what it takes for people to learn
How does it feel
When you get the real!
Time for me
Time for me
To wake up and see
That I can't look out for everyone
When no one looks out for me
Time for me
To open my eyes
And realize
That it's only my son and I
And will always be
Time for me
To be happy with myself
And to be happy by myself
Cause no one has to be with me
Time for me
To take charge
And make my life what I want it to be
Time for me
To be the strong woman
My son needs to see
Time for me
To shine brightly
For everyone to see
Put simply
It's
Time for me
Copyright 6/6/06
To wake up and see
That I can't look out for everyone
When no one looks out for me
Time for me
To open my eyes
And realize
That it's only my son and I
And will always be
Time for me
To be happy with myself
And to be happy by myself
Cause no one has to be with me
Time for me
To take charge
And make my life what I want it to be
Time for me
To be the strong woman
My son needs to see
Time for me
To shine brightly
For everyone to see
Put simply
It's
Time for me
Copyright 6/6/06
Friends to Lovers
They say you should be friends
Before anthing begins
However true friends are invested til the end
There is love
After a friendship begins
Few understand the definition of friends
Mutual respect is where it all begins
Then understanding comes in
Feelings somehow get mixed in
Communication is the key
To build anything successfully
Then you add a level of complexity
That comes with openig your body
Is it worth it to see
If the friendship can take the heat
It's worth it to me
If true love is a possibility
But if the friendship is lost
And pain is spread so far across
One heart more than the other
No understanding can be recovered
Can the friendship ever mend
Or is this break to the end
The uninjured party says "It's cool"
Yeah it seems that way to you
You tell me to look from the outside in
Can you do the same my friend
Will you even miss me if I leave
Or will you feel relieved
To not hear anything from me
Maybe I'll step back and see
Before anthing begins
However true friends are invested til the end
There is love
After a friendship begins
Few understand the definition of friends
Mutual respect is where it all begins
Then understanding comes in
Feelings somehow get mixed in
Communication is the key
To build anything successfully
Then you add a level of complexity
That comes with openig your body
Is it worth it to see
If the friendship can take the heat
It's worth it to me
If true love is a possibility
But if the friendship is lost
And pain is spread so far across
One heart more than the other
No understanding can be recovered
Can the friendship ever mend
Or is this break to the end
The uninjured party says "It's cool"
Yeah it seems that way to you
You tell me to look from the outside in
Can you do the same my friend
Will you even miss me if I leave
Or will you feel relieved
To not hear anything from me
Maybe I'll step back and see
RAW
Wow
What a day
When I don't have enough words
To say
To show
To feel
To express
To be real
Always on a different plane
Not everyone can understand
That we all need to grow
To keep up with demand
Perfect can't be attained
Until we fill the master's plan
It's not on this plane
Not on this land
Sad no many can understand
To limited to see
I won't let that be me
Too deep for the norm
Weathering all storms
Always coming out better
Than I was before
A hard task to do
Since I'm higher than you know
The reason I can see so low
Can reach the extremes
As dramatic as it seems
That's passion that's raw
Emotional enough to create
Real enough to relate
Understanding enough to explain
Even on the lowest plane
Now can you see
Naw too much from me
When explaining on different levels
And stilll confusion exists
Sad to say its you not me
Open your eyes
Then you can see
Especcially
When it's not just me
You hear the same thing
From a lesser being
The best lessones learned
Are the ones on your own
Only the truly wise
Learn from other's mistakes
But learning on your own can't be replaced
We have to remember
That aged doesn't relate
To wisdom as much as we think
There are just some
That's been here before
I won't be back again
Letting go
The anger and sin
What a day
When I don't have enough words
To say
To show
To feel
To express
To be real
Always on a different plane
Not everyone can understand
That we all need to grow
To keep up with demand
Perfect can't be attained
Until we fill the master's plan
It's not on this plane
Not on this land
Sad no many can understand
To limited to see
I won't let that be me
Too deep for the norm
Weathering all storms
Always coming out better
Than I was before
A hard task to do
Since I'm higher than you know
The reason I can see so low
Can reach the extremes
As dramatic as it seems
That's passion that's raw
Emotional enough to create
Real enough to relate
Understanding enough to explain
Even on the lowest plane
Now can you see
Naw too much from me
When explaining on different levels
And stilll confusion exists
Sad to say its you not me
Open your eyes
Then you can see
Especcially
When it's not just me
You hear the same thing
From a lesser being
The best lessones learned
Are the ones on your own
Only the truly wise
Learn from other's mistakes
But learning on your own can't be replaced
We have to remember
That aged doesn't relate
To wisdom as much as we think
There are just some
That's been here before
I won't be back again
Letting go
The anger and sin
Once in a Lifetime
Timing is everything
Notice when I come in the scene
It's usually too soon
For people to see
The realness in me
Thinking the kindness is weak
Not seeing the geunine to speak
Taking advantage til I give up
On their soules and their love
Sometimes it takes a minute to see
But they all come around eventually
Recognizing the purity
Of heart that's in me
A soul that comes in your life once
When it leaves, it's done
They always figure it out too late
The same stuck look on each face
Missing out on that chance
Of a once in a life time romance
Seeing realtalk as jealousy
Falling for fake and lesser than me
Sometimes needing years to see
How slow they could really be
Trickling down from them to me
The cycle of how they treat
Now it's too late to get
That love back in place
Hope they learned
Next time keep up with the pace
I sure learned
From each one
and when I let go
It WAS done
Timing really does matter
They showed their true colors
It was a disaster
I hope I helped them all grow
Then it was worth more than I know
Living life lovingly
Can be hurtful
It fufills me so
To know I can give fully
And appreciate when love is really given to me
Notice when I come in the scene
It's usually too soon
For people to see
The realness in me
Thinking the kindness is weak
Not seeing the geunine to speak
Taking advantage til I give up
On their soules and their love
Sometimes it takes a minute to see
But they all come around eventually
Recognizing the purity
Of heart that's in me
A soul that comes in your life once
When it leaves, it's done
They always figure it out too late
The same stuck look on each face
Missing out on that chance
Of a once in a life time romance
Seeing realtalk as jealousy
Falling for fake and lesser than me
Sometimes needing years to see
How slow they could really be
Trickling down from them to me
The cycle of how they treat
Now it's too late to get
That love back in place
Hope they learned
Next time keep up with the pace
I sure learned
From each one
and when I let go
It WAS done
Timing really does matter
They showed their true colors
It was a disaster
I hope I helped them all grow
Then it was worth more than I know
Living life lovingly
Can be hurtful
It fufills me so
To know I can give fully
And appreciate when love is really given to me
Misunderstood 2
You don't have to get me
I don't have to get you
Silly to waste time
Forcing the issue
See my faults
Well some at least
Working on correcting
Always to be a better me
Tryin to get people to see
Makes them think less of me
So when theyare ready
They will see
Keeping it moving
Going up as far as I can reach
Moving up levels
Trying to improve
I stumble and fall
But I'm right back up
Singing too
Wipe off the dirt
Keep doing the do
On to the next degree
Paraying for me and you
To become better
Achieve whatever we chose
Live a great life
And make our marks while we do
So let's get going
Together or apart
Things will only get better
I know I'm making my Start
I don't have to get you
Silly to waste time
Forcing the issue
See my faults
Well some at least
Working on correcting
Always to be a better me
Tryin to get people to see
Makes them think less of me
So when theyare ready
They will see
Keeping it moving
Going up as far as I can reach
Moving up levels
Trying to improve
I stumble and fall
But I'm right back up
Singing too
Wipe off the dirt
Keep doing the do
On to the next degree
Paraying for me and you
To become better
Achieve whatever we chose
Live a great life
And make our marks while we do
So let's get going
Together or apart
Things will only get better
I know I'm making my Start
The Best
The Best
Real
Educated
Sincere
Passioate
Emotional
Raw
Unedited
Caring
Resourceful
Helpful
Giving
Nurturing
Kind
Loving
Smart-mouthed
Defensive
Sensitive
Pushin-limits
Misunderstood
Misrepresented
All of these and more
To a flaw
But imperfection
Is the best of all
Real
Educated
Sincere
Passioate
Emotional
Raw
Unedited
Caring
Resourceful
Helpful
Giving
Nurturing
Kind
Loving
Smart-mouthed
Defensive
Sensitive
Pushin-limits
Misunderstood
Misrepresented
All of these and more
To a flaw
But imperfection
Is the best of all
Thank you
I want my first blog to be a simple thanks to everyone that has helped me in the past, present or future. Everyone that takees the time to read. Everyone that takes the time to comment.
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